heartbeats. .intimidation

So,

I'm Still job searching.
Having summer off uni is boring.

I previously worked at Next during last christmas so I keep applying for jobs that come up there, hoping I can go back.Retail is rather shitty, but its money!!

Like I said before, sitting at home all day puts you in bad habits, you need something to get up for in a morning, i just want to earn some dosh so i can finally treat myself again

. with all this free time and time to think...It seems I have become a domestic goddess,
 I love cleaning and tidying..I never thought i'd be one of those! but I love to hover the house at least twice a day.  This OCD domestic behaviour has also brought out a maternal instinct out in me, If i'm honest I just want to be a mum, I think it would be beyond wonderful. But I know we aren't ready. I dont doubt our parental abilities, its just that other things need to happen first... i need to finish my degree get a great job AND get married!... and I want a house with a lovely garden..
too many plans which rush around my head.

 I know its not our time just yet and I am sensible, but sometimes I just cant help but dream. 
Before I met Vince I never wanted children and wasn't maternal at all, but over the last few years I think a little cub would be a perfect addition to our little family which is beginging to form. Just to see the happiness that been a dad would bring to him would be perfect in itself. 
for now though it will remain a dream until I graduate and we get married.

+This weekend is gonna be good,

I have a shoot tomorrow.

and then we have Vince's brother here at ours to stay 

and we have a gig to attend on saturday. :)

xox